Wow, I'm slow.

Almost a month ago, we welcomed our third child! She's precious and darling and looks a lot like her big sister :) We've had some issues with her homecoming though. PM has been acting out frequently. I try to tell myself that it's normal 5 year old behaviour but it's all so out of character for him. He's been ignoring us, talking back, he makes just plain bad choices even when he's called out on them (so as to be able to switch what he's doing before he gets in trouble), he seems to be so angry all the time but he's not taking it out on the girls. I find myself losing all patience with the kid. I feel bad saying it but right now I just don't like him. Of course, I still love him but I really really don't like him. I don't have a frame of reference for this behaviour. He's never been like this. I'm so sick of yelling and sending him to his room but after 30 eye rolls and talking back sometimes he's just safer there. Epic Mommy fail. I'm supposed to be able to deal with this stuff, somewhere along the line I should have developed tools for this but apparently I called in sick that day. And no one has any useful advice to help me out. If I'm told to be patient it's just a phase or hear one more person giggle and say he's just like his dad was at that age I may lose my mind! NOT HELPFUL!!! But he's not always a little jerk. He can be very sweet and very helpful until he gets bored with it and turns into a turd again. I take it back, I think I have lost it.

And now, stepping away from the ledge, my girls need me...